It's been for days since auntie ga stopped talking to me. Here's what happened.
2 nov, auntie nilda and uncle gabriel quarelled at our house.
3 nov, auntie ga and papa quarelled at the same house.
         , papa was very mad at everyone that he almost bumped his bike while taking yobel and mama home from office.
4 nov, mama and papa were fighting early morning.

I was awaken by the fight of my parents early nov 4 morning. I remembered it was still 7am when i watched my phone. As their shouting were getting loud, i managed to get up from bed and told my mama gently to stop quarelling cause it's too early for that. I thought it would be helpful but they continued shouting back at each other until my mother stopped for the sake of respecting my demand. But, i didn't understand what i was feeling at that moment that i walked back to my room and cried. I don't know, i just felt so tired of all the quarells that happened inside our house. I cried and cried that i forgot to take my breakfast. When i consumed my tears i went to the dining and saw auntie ga and mama talking(i knew they were waiting for me cos they knew i was crying). I got something to eat and took my first bite. Then mama faced me and said, " For what are those tears?" At first i wasn't answering until i said "nothing". But she was insisting, so i said cos i was tired of listening to all your fights--for same reason for many years already. We were already exchanging emotions that auntie ga inserted, "Cos you don't understand". So i answered that," though i have learned to hate my father, i still get hurt when you treat him that way. i still get hurt when you wish him to die." I thought auntie ga would understand but she got up from the table and raised her voice, "Oh! i'm sorry that you are hurt,"she mockingly said, " but can't you see, your father is happy knowing that we are fighting. He is evil". I don't know what to feel so i just cried again until luch came. All who came to comfort me was nanay and mama. And katkat afforded to give me a smile. But i was so hurt. I thought it will turn okay but as time passes by, auntie ga never talks to me. She don't even answer yes or no answers from me. I don't know why. My mother says, maybe she feels that i am a traitor to her cos i tried to help my father and mama added that to get her back is to tell her that i am also angry to my father but i am not! i have promised God that i should stop hating my father cos i love him and i understand him. I don't want to regret things. I know he is aging and he can get sick in anytime. Just for these moments, maybe i can be right to express my love to my father, aye?

I just don't understand things. And i am just so hurt by auntie ga. Is it wrong not to hate? is it wrong to be right? I am so confused. God bless me.

it hurts!
grabe si sir artaba ui, nakahilak ko..laina jd kung i-blame ka sa tanan tanan na mistakes sa imong sinasakupan noh? ang sakit!hehehe..na-guilty na jud ko..im sooooooo passive lang guro mao ing-ani among class..waaahh..this is my fault! dapat, nest class week i will embrace my new life of leadership..promise! if dili na nako mahimo kay buang na jud ko, bogo..hehe..basta.. i will climb the stage na jud bahala if palapos dunggan lang akong mga iingon. mas important na ma-okay na among class,,.

naa pay lain hurt..
the one i considered my bestfriend told me to quit! wow! whatta nice advice..i don't wanna think bad about her pero i was not relieved by her advice.. nakasamot nuon nako..haaay.. i just need someone who'll listen to me..karon kay ako na maconsider true friends si kok ug claud..they're all i have nalang..

this too will pass..

wow!gikasab-an ko gabii sa CI sa laing school about sterility!!!! gibogo-an sya nako?hehe.. gikasab-an ko niya kay akong gi-open ang gi-autoclave wrapped scissors.. i just wanted to help because i thought i was the the best person to open it cos i was the only one unsterile and we all know that persons who can hand sterile articles to the sterile person(so that they will not touch the unsterile package) are those who are unsterile.. i knew what i was doing that time.. but know what, she shouted at me about sterility! oh my God, maam, i have been studying about that for the past months, though i am not an expert about it, i know what i did was RIGHT.. maam, mauwaw ka..hehe..but ang lumabas na mali kagabi ay walang iba kung di AKO! wow! sus, i really wanted to talk back to her pero i still respect her. ganahan man gyud na ang other schools na masayop mi or mauwawan mi cos they know we are better than them!nyahahahaha..joke lang..pero tinood..haha..lain jud sila..sigi lang, what is, first time gani, mu-expect nalang jud ko ug worse things to happen. haaay..naa pa diay, ngon pa siya na " sometimes, it is better for us not to be too much helpful". niingon nalang kog yes maam pero deep inside ganahan ko i-incise iyang nawng! waaaaaaaahhh..hehehe..haaayy..pero siguro she's right, i shouldn't be too helpful..thanks nalang jud ni Lord..

hooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

for the past 2 months, i have been resistant to every stressor in my 3rd yr college life. but u know what,i want to get exhausted to stress so i'll get used to it. as in grabe kaau, kapoy na kaau cge fight alone imbis daghan mo na pwede mu fight..pwede ko mu-break?pwede ko tagaan ug choice?o di ba kaha, pwede ko naay high level of strength para malampasan lang jud ni nako? just like..we just have to face it this time we're through..haaaaaayyy..im so tired of doing everything but still get frustations after it..grabe..i want to run away but i know im not that kind of person. and i will stand that statement.

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyy...im just so tired..

waaahhhh....
kalagot!naglagot jud ko..basta lang lagot jud kaau! sakto jud si gina..he's not the one! kalagot ui! lagot ko sa ako self! bogo! bogo sa tanang bogo! ngano man sad nag-expect gud ko...awa..karma! bogo! kaingon ka? hui..uv done it..samok ka! i want to believe na naa pa chance for u to change o di kaya go back to the you i know pero NOOOOO!malabo na! grabe jud.. bogo jud ko! i am just hurt! as in hurt! grabe jud.. whatever! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...lain jud ui.. di man pod ko makahilak sa kalain pero na hurt pod ko ui..tanan nalang ing-ani ang ending, as in wala nay mapili.. grabe jud! wala juy ayo tanan! wala na jud..

super daghan na jud kog problems! di na jud maihap!ahahahaha..and wait.. i hate uuuuuuuuhm...myself nalang!kay bogo jud! hahaha

haaaayyyy..naa unta taw(mudawat na ko girl or boy) basta dili lang muend sa ing-ani..lagi lagi..naay L pero di ko ganahan kung nay kahati!hahaha..ganun?ganun!

i know there are things, that i like, that aren't meant to be mine....but i do hope, the things that are meant to be mine are meant to last a lifetime.

am gonna have my capping ceremonies this tuesday, that is june 2.
we had our whole day today practicing! i so hate it!hahaha..still, im happy ill be receiving my cap.

right this very moment, i feel so alone. alone--not because im being left by my family and my close true friends (cos they're still and will always be here for me) but being left with the PERSON i thought who would be here for me no matter what..he has changed!i just don't know why!i haven't done wrong. im been so good here.i act though i don't want to act this way..uhhhh..what should i do?we'll i think, i just need to sleep..haha..everything's gonna be alright tomorrow!anyway, i shouldn't care. i don't have a right, after all.

God Bless Us all!

ps:ur just the one who makes me this expressive. ty, anyway

        
                             before                                                           after

it was a surprise yesterday that to the last minute, we had to be reshuffled!
and today was our first day of school. it was full of greetings and hugs.
i am still in section c with my close friend claudine(good thing!) but machi(sec b) and tin(sec a) and hana(sec d) are not with us anymore..huhu..i know it wouldn't be as fun as before.how i wish we could be all together again.

i am not very happy with my section this sem for now because our classroom is too congested and super summer hot! i wonder how i can transfer to the either sections?haha but that is near to impossible.

hmmm...actually, i soooooo miss my dog! it's very lonely here at home. nobody's gonna disturb while i do anything. nobody's gonna murmur me when i enter the house and while i ring the keys. i so miss betty. i miss caressing her and all.. rrrr, i wanna go home to bohol! besides, i miss the delicious cooking at home and the unlimited sleep. i miss my mama and papa's list of task to do. i miss my brothers' TV war and nanay's frustrations..hehe..honestly, i miss them because its them, simply.

it's okay, this to will pass. 5 weeks will be gone soon..hehehe..hope i can have my cap this summer! Find us here Lord!

Sometimes, problems are only felt when there is it's solutions.
i didn't know that leaves are this green...
i didn't know that jeepney writings can be seen even with it's fastest regulated speed...
i didn't know that small taglines are useful..
not until today came...o_O

funny isn't it?
Because it is my first day to use my eyeglasses.
i had a hard time walking fast and looking at things i am used to.
I didn't even know that my normal vision is not very clear that
 in fact i was very much satisfied with it..^_^

hmm..life!it has a lot to be discovered!